Love

Dear J:
Does anyone really know what love is? Well when I say that word it reflects an indescribable feeling. It brings an overwhelming happy feeling. Love is unconditional so if you sit there and describe why you love someone, your putting a condition on it because if that person didn't posses that or if they lose that you won't love them. So let love be free don't limit its to definition, but don't exceed its use because then it deteriorates from its worth. We don't know how to love but we do it everyday whether we want to or not. Life's to short not to love; so if you love someone don't hesitate to let them know, even if you just think you love them just let them know. Its the simple things that bring us to this feeling; the fact that your mom is by your side no matter what you do, or is it that guy who notices you changed the colour on your toes, or maybe your bestfriend whose shoulder is constantly soaked from your tears, whoever or whatever it is it falls under love. In Gr.9 my religion teacher told me love is an act not a feeling, that bitch is stupid because unless she can give me a name for the way I felt when I looked into a niggers eyes I'm not to sure I'm with her on that. I love my boy J and I wrote this for him because I honestly feel like I haven't been able to motivate myself either. Just when that feeling came over me I notice the people around me who read me like a book, threw their arms out; when you open up to certain people the respect level climbs and just when you thought you were alone in this world they are right there beside you trying to uplift you. Why? Love. Love is the only thing stronger than money it takes a wise person to understand that. But for now I'm out.

What's the purpose of signs? Because I thought they were suppose to be read. Okay better question, what are the purpose of signs if you are intentionally going to make your words contradict your actions? The mystery keeps me hanging on I won't lie, but I'd just like to hear it. I've been here before, and last time I was here I stayed too long then fucked it up; I fucked it up intentionally. Someone's waiting for someone to stop the bullshit. I don't show signs I just keep it to myself, the best poker face in the game, I don't see the point...maybe you don't either. Maybe you understand the concept of the line, there's nothing wrong with walking on it just don't cross it. Maybe I'm just wrong and it's all me. Why the fuck am I over thinking this. This is stupid of me. On another note I've been sober for some time now and it's not so bad.