Its me again

Is it really time to start dating? I'm bad at these things; I actually excel in getting rid of guys. I don't understand why I don't want anyone, I think it's the fear of losing the ones I already have. I can't tell one guy to stop calling me after we've been running so well, I can't tell another guy he can't check me even when intentions are good....Relationships come with risks that I'm not ready for. The potential I see and some doesn't seem to get far; I mean the dudes I really vibe with I don't want what we have to be ruined by a relationship. I don't even feel like its trust issues, I want to call it dedication issues. I don't even like talking about this shit its gets sticky and confusing. I don't know why or how I lead people on. Hopefully shit works itself out, I wouldn't mind another sexy single birthday, but how long can I run?